i’ve decided to resurrect the legendary, the coveted, “the boy list.” the list originated in the summer of 1999 when i was an lit at camp jewell, back in the day when lit’s lived in the boathouse. that’s right kids, “livin’ in the boathouse, let’s begin.” we had this huge notepad in the common room and i started a list of all the qualities i hoped to find in a potential boyfriend (at the time i was still looking forward to my first boyfriend…and my first kiss, actually) and hung it up above the fireplace. i wanted the other girls to add to the list and maybe even for the boys to start their own. but i think people just thought i was weird. or, other things i had said or done had already lead them to believe that i was weird, and this just proved their hypothesis. either way, nobody ever added to the list, so at the end of the session i took it home, diagrams and all, and hung it on the back of my closet door, where i forgot about it for years.
that was really just a first draft and i don’t even know if i have it anymore. but recent experiences have inspired me to write down certain things i love and have loved about boys so i will always remember what details to look for next time. sure, there are plenty of things i could remind myself to avoid, but this is all about optimism.
the list isn’t about mandatory prerequisites or a screening process. if a guy doesn’t meet one or ten or twenty-seven of the items he probably still has a pretty good chance with me. and i know every individual guy has his own qualities to offer, whether or not he intentionally designs and rehearses them in advance. probably a lot of qualities that could end up on the list eventually.
now, i’m not going to publish the list, b/c obviously this is a blog, not a personal ad. let’s not go wild with the desperation here. but certain people might be able to gain password protected access to certain sections of the list, or maybe even the whole thing. e-mail me with subscription applications!
quote of the day: “all that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream.” – edgar allan poe
love always, em locke
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