candles

when i have my own house, i want it to have a hardwood floored staircase and when i have parties i’m going to put all these white candles in different glass candle holders up along the edge of the stairs.

i need to organize and clean up my room and do laundry and vacuum and make sure everything looks the way it’s supposed to b/c my family is coming on friday! my brother is staying with me all weekend and we’re going out to dinner on saturday and my mom is bringing me a new blow dryer and my dad and i can go to the jazz concert together. maybe he’ll help me write my concert report.

i got the program book from the institute for study abroad at the university of butler. now that’s really scary. i want to go to europe b/c it’s new and beautiful and an adventure, but now that i have to conceptualize the idea of myself actually going there alone for an entire year, it feels more like a foreign solar system in a foreign dimension than a foreign country across the atlantic.

i wish i had some cookies. rainbow deluxe, or those nutter butters. or anything reminiscent of the popular M&C’s varieties. no, what i really want is for someone to make me cookies. peanut butter ones with the fork criss crosses on top.

quote of the day: “we tip-toed around each other like heartbreaking new friends” – jack kerouac

love always, em locke